Without Realized

I was so busy with myself, appointment here and there with the doctor until I did not realize that my eldest son is about to leave us soon. First, I was so busy with my miserable tooth where I have to see the dentist to mend it. It took me four session to make it completely done hence until now I have another two more appointment to go.

Then suddenly I have the persistent pain on the right side of my breast. It really made me worried thus the negative feeling keep haunting me. I keep on asking myself should I go and see the doctor or just let the pain diminished by itself. After reading the article on Breast Cancer my feared increased so without further delay this morning I braved myself to see the doctor and explaining my situation. God knows.... while the doctor was examining me my heart buk bak buk bak just like what. Please doc don't give me the bad news. Then she asked me if I ever do my mammogram or not because women at the age of 40 above must go for mammogram test. Unfortunately they did not have the equipment, where I have to go to other hospital to make it. At the same time she will take my blood for the diagnosis and I have to come again tomorrow to hear the result.

Tonight after having our praying my son told me that he'll better started with the packing because he has few more days left. Oh..... after hearing that I feel so sad and did not realised that time runs so fast. Pity Zaid he will miss his brother to play and sleep with. He looked so sad while helping with the packing then I realized that his tears dropped when his abang disturbed him. As for myself I will be very busy during this few days to get ready for his stuffs. He requested for Kuih lapis for his Hari Raya which I need to make it before he goes. Ahh... forget with the pain now... so many things to be done. By this weekend we need to bring him to Dubai for jalan-jalan and a last holiday for the kids because by next week they will start their school day.

"Ya Allah lindungilah aku dari kelemahan dan ketuaan dan jauhilah dari segala macam bencana , sesungguhnya aku dari insan yang lemah dan berilah kekuatan kepada ku ..... amin.....".